Depression your doughtiest enemy-3
By writingforfun, 4th Oct 2011 | Follow this author
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Depression is widely prevalent across the globe and in many age groups.It does not spare any sex or any economic categorization.Here are the results of a small sample survey that I conducted over a website.I would publish the reactions of respondents in a series of two or three pages here. You are invited to contribute freely
Depression -More global views
have been wondering and stunned by the large incidence of depression affected persons in or around me and was really eager to conduct a sample survey as to what one word reasons can be put forward by various readers of this journal-as the sole cause of major stream of depression in them.So please do help me and help yourself by reading and commenting with such one word reasons. I would be more than glad to let all concerned have the overall outcome of this sample survey. I intend to receive such responses till well into the new year.
So folks do volunteer!
Read some more responses that I got:
Interesting question, I can't just sum it up in one word, its a combination of many aspects, I've been severely clinically depressed for so long I forget when it started.
Abandonment: Knowing that my mother abandoned us kids years ago (even though she came back two years later) and still to this day feeling like it was my fault she left, and knowing that anyone could abandon me, at any time.
Abuse/Molestation: The memory of being sexually abused/molested when I was seven, and being psychologically/emotionally abused by my parents for most of my childhood.
Loneliness: Being completely alone, and feeling emotionally distant from those who try to get close to me. I've moved 16 times, I have no friends, I'm not close to my family, and I have no one to call a friend who isn't online. It is true isolating loneliness.
Inadequacy: feeling like everything I do is worthless, inadequate, and useless.
Overall, a painful childhood and complete emotional isolation. Holidays don't help much either, I still live with my folks and the holidays remind me of how distant and detached we all are. Depression also tends to feed on itself, thinking of suicide makes me more depressed, while being more depressed makes me think more of suicide.
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Regrets....
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Winter!!
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Not being able to help when it is needed and personal disappointments...my writing depicts my emotions and being a normal human they escalate depending on what is happening in my life. Depression is not always clinically devastating but gives one the ability to repress thoughts and sit back and evaluate how you got there and where you need to go to become happy....
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It, i just don't trust my self, to be able to come trough for things, and not repeat my mistakes again.
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BETRAYAL BY A FAMILY MEMBER WHEN I WAS 8 YEARS OLD...I WAS SOLD FOR A PLACE TO LIVE...WAS SERIOUSLY SEXUALLY ABUSED FOR OVER 8 MONTHS ...EVERY DAY... AND ALSO EXPERIENCED MOLESTATION FROM A FAMILY MEMBER ..AND WHEN MY GRANDMOTHER WALKED IN AND CALLED ME SICK...EVEN THOUGH I WAS ASLEEP AND WOKE UP TO HER COMMENTS...NOBODY EEVR TOLD MY DAD OR HIS SIDE OF THE FAMILY AND I WAS TOO SCARED TO TELL... SO I CARRIED IT..RAN FROM IT..AND DESTROYED MY LIFE BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID TO CONFRONT MY RELAITIES FOR ALMOST 20 YEARS. - SINCE YOUR ASKING..AND I HAVE NO SHAME... I SAW THESE PEOPLE ALOT..AND ITS BECAUSE THEY ARE ALL FAMILY...MY DADS SIDE OF THE FAMILY IS NOT LIKE THIS AND IT WAS VERY HARD GROWING UP AROUND SUCH WELL ROUNDED PEOPLE WHO WERE ALWAYS "HAPPY" ..WHEN MY LIFE WAS DESTROYED AND I COULDNT TELL ANYONE ABOUT IT...NEEDLESS TO SAY I'M THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE WHOLE FAMILY....AND BASICALLY...IT STILL HAUNTS ME SOMETIMES.. BECAUSE ITS VERY HARD FOR WELL SEASONED INDIVIDUALS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I WENT THROUGH...
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I KNOW JESUS HAS BEEN THROUGH WORSE...
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There is no one word answer that I can give sorry JG mine was a build up that eventually collapsed into depression a build up that included many of the one word answers that others have given here. My life has been very complicated, it has included loss, betrayal, fear, lonliness, anxiety, money worries, concerns for my children, my health problems, loss of self-belief. Perhaps the worst of these was the betrayal of the one I loved, the one who I thought would be with me always, the one I trusted above al others, my husband. For without his betrayal all the others would have seemed less of a burden for the burden would have been shared. Having to face so many thing on your own when you have been a team for so long is a shock that you never recover from. You struggle on but you are never whole again.
Sorry JG a one word answer is hard to find
I hope depression is not something you suffer from or ever will it is not a nice place to be and so very hard to price yourself away from even when you smile and pretend you are coping.
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more views to follow on this rich topic ...please feel free to contribute your own..
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4th Oct 2011 (#)
I loved this piece. How you pour your heart out. I liked the way you introduced others comments to make me realise that depression is a real problem that needs addressing - NOW.
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