Addicted to sadness?

jaspersilence By jaspersilence, 28th Sep 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL
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Love has surely hurt us all.What has it done to you?

Heartbreak and it's creative nature.

I can still remember her scent.All of the minor moments we shared,still stand out so vivid in my mind.She was my first love,and she taught me all about heartbreak.
I think we all have dealt with love,and it's positive,and negative consequences.After my first heartbreak,I experienced many more.Enough to wonder if I was addicted to sadness.
During my times of heartbroken depression,I exploded with creativity.My writing became more intense.My paintings bled with expression,and I observed people with a more keen way of thinking.It hurt,but it certainly opened my mind to a new,knowledgeable world.
When I think back now of those melancholy times,I can still remember the feelings,and each had it's own individual significance at those certain times in my life.It is very similar to remembering your first kiss,or the feeling of the last day of school before summer break.You will never have those feelings again.I,however,embraced that sadness,and use it to intensify my expression.I don't think I would mind being emotionally damaged again,because I have taught myself to use the hurt for art.
This could be very bad for my mental health,for I may set myself up,or sabotage my relationships.Without realizing what I am doing,I could cause another woman to break my heart.I do not consider myself an emotional masochist,but I do understand the power of self persuasion.
I am very appreciative of all the heartbreak I experienced so far in my life.I feel that everyone needs those lovesick moments.It strengthens us,and teaches us to cope,but I would not recommend doing what I have explained in this article.Take it as it comes,and try your best to overcome the pain.Do not embrace it like I have,and probably will do again,but let it run its course.If you linger on the memories,sure it makes great art...but you will find yourself in a extremely sorrowful cycle.


Coping, Heartbreak, Love, Relationships

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author avatar jaspersilence
I live in ohio.32 year old male.I am a musician,artist,and writer.I write,music,short stories and poetry.I play guitar,and piano.I am also a survivor of a very rare cancer.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
28th Sep 2013 (#)

I think artists need the inspiration from strong emotional feelings - siva

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