I Attempted Suicide More Than Once

Bipolar Blogger By Bipolar Blogger, 5th Aug 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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I Have most of my life dealt with depression and subsequently have found myself in relationships with people who have had the same problems as me.

I Attempted Suicide More Than Once

I am kind of unsure how to start this, I have written a lot about this issue on other sites and it is not something I feel proud of. I am currently some kind of leader of people and I feel it is important to lead by example which is a bit of a conflict to me in this topic.

In life we are faced with trials and tribulations that test us, with age we should learn from them, not everyone does though. Those are the ones in my opinion that permitted themselves to be beaten down victims of what has happened in their lives.

There is however another side of the story, those who are not just depressed, they are damaged mentally by what they have been through, I am admittedly one of them.
My wife is also one of those people. My wife is bipolar as well as schizophrenic due to occurrences in her life.

Suicide attempts are NOT always a cry for help, sometimes they are a genuine cry for a way out. I have lost a sister and a person I was in a relationship with to suicide. All the signs before their end could have been seen as a cry for help.

We all think about it I think, admit it or not. I admit the thought crossed my mind just yesterday. I am happy, I love my wife, I love my baby and my 2 grown kids, I love my family but truth be told sometimes I feel too weak to accept that I feel like I am failing sometimes.

I do what I do never for myself, I do it for others. It is called co-dependency . When I feel like I fail others I feel like I fail myself. Now I am not going to do anything against myself, I will not ever do it but the thought crosses my mind.

To understand my thoughts :

Assisted Suicide - Right or Wrong?

My Thoughts on Suicide

Schizophrenia & Suicide

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author avatar MMD
5th Aug 2013 (#)

You should be thankful to God.
I appreciate your efforts to get rif of your addiction.

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author avatar littlebelgianwriter
5th Aug 2013 (#)

It is a good thing you write about your experiences. Coming from experience this might be something others can relate to.

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author avatar redvakaurvaki
5th Aug 2013 (#)

I hope you never think about suicide anymore

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author avatar Lauraelrod
5th Aug 2013 (#)

I'm glad you're here

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author avatar jenny1015
6th Aug 2013 (#)

We sometimes get to the point of blaming ourselves for everything even if it has really no direct impact on us. We must just learn to set our boundaries, I guess, You can be all too caring, all too loving all too helpful. But you can only do so much. Don't be harsh on yourself. Just be happy that you are able to help. If others fail, it was not because of your doing. NoPe!

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author avatar Cristiana
6th Aug 2013 (#)

I know you will never get suicide because you are a happy man now

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author avatar Phyl Campbell
7th Aug 2013 (#)

I'm glad you're here, too.

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author avatar Connie McKinney
8th Aug 2013 (#)

I'm also glad you're here and sharing your experiences to help other people.

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author avatar Trillionaire
10th Aug 2013 (#)

Thank God for His grace.

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author avatar naash
22nd Aug 2013 (#)

When God has sent us as such perfection (a human being) we should always be thankful..high and lows are part of the system...the strongest are those in a critical situation who says 'I'm gonna make it! I'm gonna fight and be happy again'

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author avatar madugundurukmini
1st Sep 2013 (#)

thankful god

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