I survive day by day.

maree By maree, 12th Jun 2011 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/42bigi1z/
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This is a short summary on my health, trying to deal with life one day at a time.
Hope's of returning to what I once was.
challenges with pain.

Health is so important.

Yes health is so important. Especially when life was nearly lost.
To wake up one morning, with everything as you knew it, stripped away from you.
Time ticks by day by day. Dreams of yesteryear always on your mind.

You give yourself time to reflect, then with a mighty thump you return to earth.
You sit at your computer every day. Inspired by people's encouraging words.
You escape into surfing and exploring, not allowing the dark clouds to descend.
For once they did, filling your mind with such dread.

Yes you turned the situation around, depressed and alone.
You knew you could not go on this way.
So pull yourself together you did. Proud is what you are now.

You might not be able to run and skip. A little more weight around your hips.
Lines have appeared on your face, but you think well I have been to hell and back. What can I expect.

Your machines you have no energy to return to. Sewing which was your passion, is just a long lost memory.

Pain cripples you as it invades your body. You try to recall the day when you did not have to take pain killers to ease it.
You smile as you think at least it is not morphine, and start to imagine little red men on the march, step step stepping. As you close your eyes and stop typing you let them soldier on. Each step crushing the alien within. Making the pain run a mad dash.
You put them into thought's of horrible little bugs, needing to be destroyed.
Sometimes it works, sometimes it does not. So another pill you take.

You are determined not to be addicted to any sort of medication, your doctor is proud as a year and a half have passed.
He says not to be to hard on myself, if I need anything stronger, all I need to do is ask.

You go to support meetings, and think I shall never be like that person, lost and depressed.
I will not allow my illness to dominate my well being.
I shall take it one step at a time. Eat healthy. Walk when I am able.
Drink lots of water, and make sure to have daily my Vita Brits.

Yes life can truly suck at times. But then you remember, life is also what you make it.

Light at the end of the rainbow.

What keeps you plodding on. Is that you are on the waiting list for a reversal.
A lot of individuals do not have that opportunity as you do.
You are indeed one very lucky lady.

It was August 2009 when you world shattered. Like someone had just hit a ball with a hammer. 21 days you were in hospital.
Over 4 months housebound. Glued to your bed or chair on good days.

At least now you are able to move around. Even venture out, just need to take a little rest.

You know you will one day return, that another operation is ahead of you.
It will involve more morphine and pain beyond your wildest dreams.
Nine hours the surgery will take, but you will be in better health.
No poison flowing through your system.
Already aware of the journey the road you will go down.
Reality hopefully will stay awhile, if your brain needs to take a break, then you might just let it make a short escape. You know what to expect.

Medicine, they will give you, to make your survival possible.
Support will be all around you from friends family, nurses and doctors you already have meet.
You are better prepared this time you have sorted a way to make an income,
So recovery will not be such a struggle, as you will be able to rest and relax, plus type away.

Most important when you return home you will not be alone.


Enjoyment, Family, Hospital, Illness, Income, Medicine, Support, Surgeon, Survival

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author avatar maree
Due to major surgery in 2009, I was forced to shut shop after 20 years. Determined not to feel sorry for myself I decided to swing the situation around to my benefit.

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author avatar johnnydod
12th Jun 2011 (#)

Thanks for letting us into your world, I for one wish you and yours all the best.

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author avatar Lila Bangsawan
12th Jun 2011 (#)

You are not alone,maree. I think all wikinutters are also your family. Be happy.I do wish all the best for you.

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author avatar deepa venkitesh
12th Jun 2011 (#)

I wish you all the luck

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author avatar Retired
12th Jun 2011 (#)

I am with you.

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author avatar Rathnashikamani
12th Jun 2011 (#)

I pray for your good health.
Wish you fast recovery.

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author avatar Denise O
12th Jun 2011 (#)

Maree, we are here for you, you will never be alone. Your generosity from the start insured you that. I have found for me, writing about my illness and sharing it has been very freeing. I honestly feel, if I had opened up about my life to any other writing site other than here, it would of just gotten a few eyerolls but, because of the great group of folks here, it has been a very freeing experience and one I will never regret. Allow your self to trust in these great people, I know for a fact, they will not let you down. Thank you for sharing with us, we are very grateful that you did.:)

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author avatar Steve Kinsman
12th Jun 2011 (#)

I am pulling for you Maree. Your courage is an inspiration.

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author avatar maree
12th Jun 2011 (#)

I love you all finding wikinuts has given me a window to share all my thoughts. Thank you everyone.

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author avatar Tranquilpen
14th Jun 2011 (#)

Thank you so much Maree, for sharing, it does me proud to count among these totally sincere fellow writers, wishing you Godspeed. Several other members of this elect group of carers will follow soon:-)) X

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5th Aug 2011 (#)

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
20th May 2015 (#)

I hope you are feeling much better now Maree. I visited friends of mine, a couple, and they are through severe health challenges and hope that they can get back to their lives of decades ago. They can with some adjustments, I assured them - siva

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