Living With Depression

Paulc488 By Paulc488, 4th Jan 2014 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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This article is about my continuing struggle with depression and the fact that I have decided it is time to face my fears and get help dealing with my depression.

My Depression and the effects it has on my life

Firstly I would like to thank anyone who spends the time to read this post, I will be very honest writing about the depression I have struggle with since being a teenager is not that easy so I will apologise now if this article appears a little disjointed in places.

Like I mentioned above I have suffered from depression since my teenage years and on several occasions during the past fifteen year plus, like a lot of people with serious depression I have contemplated suicide. Thankfully since becoming a father to my two darling daughters I have not looked to end my life, they have given me a real reason for carrying on regardless of how low I get.

Depression is a scary and strange disease, as when the downers hit there is often no real reason for them, this makes it so hard to identify and deal with the triggers for my depression. The tiniest of things that happen can take me from happy chappy to the lowest of lows in a matter of second. Some days I wake up as high as a kite, full of life for no reason at all, like it said just now it is a very strange and often confusing world to live in. From the research I have done over the years it appears that the pattern of my depression is along the lines of bipolar disorder or manic depression as it is also know.

I also mentioned above that my depression took a downturn in the run up towards Christmas, every now and again I would just get emotional and teary for no reason at all. Being away from my family while at work really effected my moods and when I was with them I just wanted to hide away in the house.

As a result of recent events I have decided that it is time to seek medical help for my depression, up to now I have always tried to manage it myself but recently the downward spirals have just been to much for both me and my family, so it is time to take action. I am scared of doing this as people do like to judge those with mental Heath issues but I need to take this step for my family, so I am going to bite the bullet and go see the doctor over the next few weeks and see where I go from here.

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Bipolar, Bipolar Disorder, Depressed, Depression, Manic Depression, Manic Depressive, Mental Health, Mental Illness

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author avatar Mark Gordon Brown
4th Jan 2014 (#)

I too have suffered with Depression. It is something of a struggle to talk about too as a lot of people still do not understand it. I wish you success.

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author avatar Paulc488
4th Jan 2014 (#)

Thanks Mark, I think it is time for me to face my depression as trying to cope with it on my own is no longer working.

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author avatar Retired
4th Jan 2014 (#)

Thank you for sharing your struggle. It's great that you have decided to get help. I hope you get better soon.

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author avatar Paulc488
4th Jan 2014 (#)

Thank you Lynett :-)

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author avatar Mariah
21st Apr 2014 (#)

I hope you have since taken that step to seek help and that life is becoming more enjoyable for you, well done on sharing your struggle with us here, that's a big step forward in itself. x

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author avatar Paulc488
21st Apr 2014 (#)

I have indeed turned the corner Mariah and I am living a much more positive life :-)

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author avatar Mariah
21st Apr 2014 (#)

That's so good to hear..and it's lovely to meet you too.

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author avatar Paulc488
21st Apr 2014 (#)

And you Mariah :-)

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