The Media and Diets

Elaine Merryweather By Elaine Merryweather, 29th Oct 2013 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
Posted in Wikinut>Health>Diet & Nutrition

Do you ever feel confused about your own standards of beauty? Do you ever stop and think if you really do find "that" type of body beautiful or if it's simply what you have come to recognize as beauty due to the magazines shoving it down your throat? Let's discuss it!

The Secret ED

When I was fifteen I had an eating disorder. No one ever knew. My parents, loving as they are, were never particularly observant of such matters. My friends were concerned with other two girls who suffered from the same, but whose problem was out in the open.

I was never thin, maybe that’s why no one noticed something was wrong. I had been chubby since I was ten and got my period. A couple of years later I was no longer what you would describe as chubby, but voluptuous. By the time I was thirteen my breasts were a nice 36DD and I had the hips, and thighs, to match. I was never particularly fond of thin women and, as such, was quite happy with my May West like figure.

I didn’t want to be thin, to see my ribcage poking out or feel my hipbones. I wasn’t interested in a concave stomach, a thigh gap or skinny legs. But neither did I want to be different. I was already the weird girl who read Jane Austen instead of gossiping, who watched documentary’s while others followed reality shows and had a very distinct snobby accent. Wasn’t it enough that I was different from other girls my age, must I look different too?

And so I began my diet - so I could look like everyone else, so I could belong. I would have an apple for lunch; eat a bowl of Special K for dinner every day, except for weekends when I would treat myself to a normal, albeit small sized, meal for dinner with my family. If I slipped up I would purge. I purged enough times for me to lose my gag reflex. This went on for nearly two years and I never became skinny. Thinner, yes; skinny, no.

I hated the way I looked: my breasts were much smaller, my ribcage was showing, my thighs looked impoverished without the extra meat. But I got compliments, from friends, acquaintances, my boyfriend, my parents and grandparents. After all, I looked thinner, and everyone knows that’s a good thing. In fact, looking at pictures from back then, I looked sickly – I have a meaty frame and, even if I wasn’t skinny, it was rather obvious that my body should have had a little more meat than it did then.

What I’m trying to say is, even if you love yourself, if you love your body, there are still other reasons to develop an eating disorder. Even if you are not influenced by what you see in magazines, in movies, on TV, you will be influenced by the way others treat you. So the next time you found out a girl is struggling with ED please don’t assume she doesn’t love herself, think of the way the people around her, even yourself, have been treating her and if she has any reason to feel left out.

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Diet, Dieting For Weight Loss, Eating Disorders, Eating Habits, Eating Healthy To Lose Weight

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Just another old-fashioned girl stuck in the XXI century...

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
30th Oct 2013 (#)

We should be healthy, be comfortable within our body and self-confident. What others think should not bother us - siva

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