The Subjectivity of Mental Health

darciefrench By darciefrench, 15th Mar 2011 | Follow this author | RSS Feed
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My story of moving from shame to ecstasy, attempting to re-enter society post-illumination, and then leaving everything I knew it to rediscover that which I had found, and then lost.

Moving from shame to ecstasy

After enduring a lifetime of depression occurring on and off and consequent fibromyalgia, I spent the year 2007 in meditation and studying the works of my favorite spiritual teacher, Dr David R Hawkins. By the end of the year, I was illuminated as the Presence of God and ego was seen to be nothing more than programs and belief systems operating that were, in effect, nothing short of blocks to experiencing the natural state of joy.

Returning to society

Early in 2008, at the beckoning of my family, I returned to the field of social work, of which I hold a bachelor degree. By august of that year, I was suffering from the opposite of the blissful state of illumination, I wanted to die. I had essentially attempted to resurrect what was a shattered ego, as the programs that were seen to be false in the light of God had literally dissolved.

It was not that I wasn't able to do the job, in fact, I was an expert at pretty much everything I tried. The problem lay in the belief that it was a person behind the doingness, not a higher purpose. And that which had been 'me', was dead.

The mental health breakdown

Unable to pretend any longer that I was still the same person prior to the illumination of 2007, I went through what was diagnosed as a mental health breakdown. Desperate to regain the experience of the Presence of God vs the pain of being perceived by family, friends, and coworkers as mentally ill, I left everything as I knew it to take a greyhound bus from BC, Canada to Sedona, AZ, to visit Dr Hawkins in person. And, alone in the desert, completely unmedicated and without familiar props of any sort, I rediscovered the Self, and was met with Love. I wrote a book about the experience called Karma's Story, and more about the book can be found here. You can read the full book now on Squidoo starting with Karma's Stage.

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Awakening, Bipolar, Karma, Mental Health, Spirituality

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author avatar Tranquilpen
16th Mar 2011 (#)

Hello Darcie, Yours is a most moving article which I will be pondering over for quite a while to come as it is so similar to my own experiences. A wise old sage once asked me; " how can you possibly describe light, unless you had first seen the darkness"? Thank you so much

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author avatar darciefrench
17th Mar 2011 (#)

Thank-you very much for your comments and for the quote, too -:)

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author avatar Dafeenah
18th Mar 2011 (#)

I am glad that you were able to overcome your illness and use it as a positive force. Thanks for sharing.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Hugo La Rosa
12th Apr 2011 (#)

Nice article, and great insight on illumination experiences.

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author avatar Denise O
14th Apr 2011 (#)

Good for you my friend. Very nice writing. I look forward to reading more of your work. Welcome to wikinut. Thank you for sharing.:)

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author avatar Vernazoa
7th Sep 2011 (#)

I would like for you to read my acrostic on psychiatrist. I am bipolar and I have been hospitalized for depression over 30 times. I function well now and I am on the medicines that help me cope.

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author avatar Vernazoa
7th Sep 2011 (#)

I would like for you to read my acrostic on psychiatrist. I am bipolar and I have been hospitalized for depression over 30 times. I function well now and I am on the medicines that help me cope.

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author avatar Sivaramakrishnan A
28th Apr 2015 (#)

Interesting journey - life is full of highs and lows that we have to tackle - siva

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